So, I think now it's been like 3 weeks or a bit over that I have not logged into Aion to play. I know most people don't care and there will be the generic don't let the door hit you kind of replies, but I still think I need to share some of my thoughts with y'all.
So I am a headstart player, the kind that sacrificed a couple of weeks of deserts to purchase the collectors edition game back in the day. It was the only mmo that I had been so excited for, ever. And in the first couple of years it did not disappoint.
I took many breaks away from the game when things became too frustrating, and mainly, it has to do with the negation of progress that Aion patches always do: you get caught into grinding for something so ferociously, but you are not quit there yet, and a new patch comes, gives what you worked for so hard for free to everybody else, and then brings in a new gear to work for.
Simply put, I'm done playing to be able to play 'one day'. This last time I had come back for 6.0 because it promised AGAIN that things would be revamped, rethinked, restarted. I think it is the 3rd time already that Aion promises that, that KR are appologising for the bad outcome previous patches have brought and erase and rewind. But after so many times that the history repeats itself, you come to understand that it is only a marketing gimmick. And also, that the game is designed for Korean market, not this one. And Gameforge is not willing to do the right things to compensate for the lack of ... mechanics, after all, since it is my understanding that our region is the only one far behind transformation stats.
Let me explain: I don't think the game has ever been designed to be a 'long goal' kind of game. Aion is supposed to be fun, fast, you can see this by the speed new things are being added to it, look at the legendary forms list right now and ... isn't it bigger than the basic transformations list? How sad is that, that even after playing 15 20 hours a day for the past year and grinding the heck out of every event with my 20 alts, 5 accounts, I still am missing my class transformation? GF is trying to starve the people and make them pay for these forms, I get that, I understand this company needs to survive, but so does the playerbase. And there is no point in playing if something is so frustrating to the point where even pay to win does not make such a big difference. Everything in this game is more like a bait than anything at this point: the shop, the events, the end game content: its there, but mostly inaccessible.
Anyway, my anger and frustration with the game has mostly died out since i am now playing something else that I can actually enjoy while still working towards a goal. So let me just share some personal experience regarding my quitting the game.
I was doing my lugbug dailies for those white contracts, every day, on 11 characters. It was taking me hours, some I enjoyed, some were just disgustingly boring, But I was thinking... I will get that contract one day. I fused ancients numerous times, I even fused legendary doubles, although I only have 4 different legendary forms. I got Hamerun 5 times. I stopped believing that the thing is RNG as it felt for me that the more you work towards it, the less the game is willing to give it to you. I felt stuck in this loop. Still, when they changed the lugbug dailies and made the contracts a monthly thing, I was so relieved because I knew I could not keep the grind forever, the weekly thing seemed more forgiving and it promised a legendary form for every 2 months. I thought I could still do it with all my 11 characters, only to find out later after the first week, that only 1 character was able to do it since GF only was going to give one of those breaths every month. WHich made my whole lugbug grind pointless, I could now only do it 3 days in a week, with just my main.
So here is the story. I was very sad about this outcome, because I had all this high hopes of again beating RNG with sheer numbers and ridiculous grind. I had been awake the whole night, farming in Dumaha and reset was close, in the morning, I was rushing to get to a lugbug and finish my daily stuff. Some enemy tried to kill me on the way there and as that was happening, my cat was meowing for attention and patting my shoulder with its paw. I kept talking to it to leave me the heck and go away, sometimes he picks on the voice tone and understands. This time he decided to jump on my desk instead, sit his ass on my keyboard and piss the hell out of my. So I shoved the cat away in anger. I didn't hurt him or anything, but.... my cat is a really cool cat dude. He is a very chatty feline. Has a meow for anything. When I shoved him away, he meowed in a way that broke my heart a little. He was of course displeased that his human goes against his wishes, but it seemed to me like he was surprised by it too, like it was not the expected result, as I'm usually very cuddly when things like this happen, I love that my cat comes around for a pet. Usually. And as he was meowing on the floor looking at me, displeased and rejected, I felt like an a'hole. And then I felt very sad. That a stupid lugbug makes me hurt people and cats around me that i actually love very very much. And over the course of the following day as this thing kept replaying in my head, I turned more and more disgusted at the mindless, souless grind that I dont even enjoy.
take this as you will. But my conclusion is that the game makes no sense. The incoming patches make no sense, the unnecessary nerfes that grinding gets all the time are not needed. Everything is done against players experience, i feel. I wish GF understood this, the toll that the farming takes on people, the disturbance those bait rewards in those grindy events cause, the fact that at some point you never really get to play the game because you need to try all these 'maybes' that never actually happen. This game has made me very very sad and quite disgusted at the gaming industry in general.
Wish you all good luck and may Aion let you out one day.